In another case of Herbie’s Horrible Luck with Boys…
So some guy hit me up a few days ago on Scruff (shut up, blame Skylar), telling me all these things he wanted to do with me. I’m not really the random hook up type, something I’ve mentioned multiple times before, but he sent me pictures of himself…and various other body parts. So I was enticed. Problem: he says it has to be all down low because he’s not out and people know him or whatever. Ugh.
Still, I was willing to give things a try. We were gonna hook up tonight, and as we’re chatting like a half hour before we’re supposed to meet, he drops the bomb asking, “What if I’m not what you expect?” Okay… So after questioning him, I find out that all of the pictures he sent me were of some other person, not him. THE FUCK?! How does this sort of thing happen to only me?!
Clearly, I’m upset by this, because I can’t stand being lied to about anything. So I pretty much called things off, since this was such a big deal to me. If I can’t trust anything he’s been saying to me now, how the hell am I supposed to trust him enough to have sex with him?
But this is where things get even weirder. I asked him out of curiosity if he knew me or knew of me on campus before we started talking on the app, to which he says yes. Even weirder, I apparently know this person too! Like, seriously… Why do these things happen? So I have a secret admirer/stalker that knows me in real life, that I allegedly know as well, who is still in the closet, and basically won’t tell me anything about him. Then again, I have no idea if I can trust anything this person has said at this point. It’s all so ridiculous right now.
Is it really this difficult to find a decent guy? -____-
Personal note to myself before I go to bed:
And not in reference to any one guy in particular, yet in reference to all of them, but in varying degrees and predicaments…
DO NOT GET ATTACHED. DO NOT GET OVER EMOTIONAL. DO NOT STALK, DO NOT BECOME THE ONE THAT DOES ALL THE WORK, AS ALWAYS. LET SOMEONE COME TO YOU TO PROVE THERE’S ACTUALLY SOMETHING THERE. DO NOT GET DISTRACTED BY PURELY THE PHYSICAL, AND DON’T GET SUCKED INTO A FANTASY BECAUSE OF THE PERSONAL.
This has been a public service announcement for myself. Good night.
One more thing…
I found a guy on Grindr that’s DTF for after spring break. He goes to RPI (FUCK YES), and has an open relationship boyfriend… So if things go well, possible threesome? Exciting! =) I’m obviously not looking at this going past just fucking, as he’s still involved with someone, even if it is open. We’re just both attracted to each other and want sex, so no problem?
Besides, I think he’s a conservative Republican, so I don’t think I could seriously date him, hahaha.
I’ve still got my other two RPI guys I’m interested in on a more serious relationship level. So theoretically (ha!), were I to hook up with the first guy, and get to slowly date then finally be in a real relationship with one of the other guys, I’d be definitely having my cake and eating it too. Oh, and Caleb’s possibly back in the picture since he’s back from Ireland, but I think that’s still just a friend zone situation.
These things are never simple!