If you couldn’t guess from my little post last night, I was effectively friend zoned again.

This guy is great. He’s cute, he’s musically talented, he’s absolutely hilarious, he’s sweet, just all around fun to be around. I thought maybe he was interested in something…

Like, I thought in drinking together with some of his friends at his school, I’d hoped maybe it’d make things a little easier and maybe some moves would be made. We had spent nearly the entire day together at UA first, watching a movie in my room, eating snacks together and playfully throwing wrappers at each other. Then we got dinner at the Campus Center, chilled with two of my friends, until we decided to go have some drinks with his friends.

He didn’t drink much, but he got a tiny bit more touchy-feely with me. Still, the entire night, he was on Grindr, and while he said he’s not into hooking up with guys and that he just chats with some people, it was still a sign of rejection. I even attempted to forget to get to the bus at a decent time, in hopes of being forced to spend the night. Well, first he complained about going back to his room and roommate, and when I offered for him to come back to my room, he respectfully declined. Then, when the bus passed by my stop because it was full, I hoped he would offer to let me stay with him then… Instead, his last ditch effort was to get one of his sober friends to drive me back to UA.

So, in the end, I felt guilty for making this poor girl drive me back to campus at 2am in the freezing cold, and rejected yet again by another great guy that I can’t have and isn’t interested in me. I got back to my room feeling like shit, and nearly cried myself to sleep.

I hope that maybe what I thought was cute flirty behavior between us really was cute flirty behavior, and that he maybe wants to take things slow, hence not wanting to spend the night in case some drunken mistake happened. I just don’t want to be that idiot that read things the wrong way again.